Have Faith

About 2 1/2 years ago (summer of 2007), wow, that went by fast, I was pregnant...or so I thought.

First-a little information before I get started.  Jason, my husband, was diagnosed with testicular cancer when he was 21.  He almost died.  He was brushed off by doctors saying it was nothing. It took months before one doctor said it was testicular cancer.  It also took a few months to get him in for the surgery, thanks to HMO.  Regardless, he survived.  After the surgery he was left with one testical and told he would most likely not be able to have children.

Fast forward to 2001.  We were married in June and five months later were pregnant (to our surprise) with Saryah, our first daughter.  What a miracle!

I found out I was pregnant on the day that he did his sperm count (after the grueling process of course).  I still laugh about it.  We were going to start planning and the doctor needed to find out his sperm count to let us know if it was going to be possible and what we can do to get pregnant.

Everything went well with the pregnancy and we had a healthy 9lb 4 oz girl on August 10, 2002.

A few years later we started getting the baby itch and this time we were trying.  Nothing happened until 2007.

We were in the middle of moving and I found out I was pregnant.  I had all the symptoms (the nausea, the weight gain).

Three months into the pregnancy I finally went to the doctor.  The first thing they did was an ultrasound but they found nothing.  Actually there was a sac but no baby.  I was devastated.  They did some blood work to find out what was going on and came back with the explanation that I had a blighted ovum.

A few days later at home I miscarried the sac.  I bled for hours.  I was so heart broken.  It took me months to get over it.  I kept asking "why" and asked Heavenly Father for understanding.  He helped me realize that I had to appreciate the 3 children I was already blessed with.

The following February I came across Isagenix through a couple I had made friends with through MySpace (of all places) tehe.  I ordered my 30 day cleanse.  (You can go to Crystal's blog by clicking on the word Isagenix.)

At the same time of my cleanse I decided to let go and have faith.  I started researching adoption and foster parenting.  It was refreshing to let go and let God.

2 months later I was pregnant with Jason's second miracle.  Madelyn Rae was born January 28, 2009.

She brings so much joy in this hectic and stressful time in our lives while we struggle financially.

Have Faith!  Never give up!  Let go and Let God!

xoxo
Myda